We three made it through our first month, and then our second! Lucas exercises, he smiles, he coos... Sometimes I try to take it all in, to look at our son and see the totality of what he is: a new person. Soon he will be talking to us, and eventually, as an intellectual peer (or superior probably!), he will be sharing ideas, challenging our beliefs and forging his own journey of discovery and self definition.
So far when I've tried to do that I've realized, it's way too big to comprehend.
Our son's life, his future, the person he will become, is like a giant puzzle that can only be started at the edges, snapped into place piece by piece, each moment building upon the one before, the full picture coming into focus only slowly, over time. and while our main part in this journey is simple - to love and protect this child - there is more to life than just being safe and sound. there's the joy.
Our love and protection are the basics, the ante in this game of parenting, the admission to the journey; it's the joy and pleasure that are the real reward, the spark of light that turn life into something special. For the part of the journey that we share with Lucas, where our paths are one and our parental love illuminates his way, our goal will be simple: enjoy this little bundle of joy, this incredible puzzle of life, like it's going out of style.
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